. . . Epiphany . . .

. . . I’m supposed to be writing a paper. . . However I’m only going to allow a few minutes for this. . .  So basically you know those times when you feel like Hell has broken loose upon you?

Well basically I was feeling like that. . . And I want to write a poem xD  . . .  Because thats what I do!

POEM:

Falling so fast

Bullet can’t catch

You

Head is spinning

Top can’t match

You

Other kids winning

Hates taking over

You

Out of proportion

Atom bomb

Exploded heart

Losing and

Contorting hearts

Not the same

Always changing

Falling

Falling

Falling

Hit the ground

Catches

You

Tears streaming

Hugs

You

Friends Laughing

Loves

You

I found God

Jesus walks here

With You

God

Jesus

Everybody

Loves

You

FALLEN WARRIOR

Sorry this is the first post in a really long time...

And its only a poem :(

I hope you like it....

Here it is:

FALLEN WARRIOR by PMJ

If I could just move on

Might I just stand up?

Tear this bullet out

Not one single care in heart

In mind;

Sometimes not understood

How it could be this way,

I brought myself trouble.

It’s my own fault

Will it be okay?

Of course it will,

I say to myself

But I need time,

Healing must be done.

Lots of it.

Every time I used to think,

My smile spread wide and full.

And now I think my stupid acts,

My soul groans at the pain.

I’m not the man I used to be,

She changed me,

But it wasn’t enough

Was it?

So here I sit in great consultation,

With myself.

Can I do it?

Can I trudge on?

Be strong?

Through this battle and fight,

This war of tear shed,

I’m standing in a red pool of fright.

Scared to find another battle,

And lose it once more.

I can’t do it, not now. . .

Its over,

I’m too sore to move on,

Weary with grief.

My broken soul,

And wounded heart

Have fallen to this new warrior.

I’ve lost the fight,

Have I won the war?

But no it’s merely starting.

I cannot fret,

I shall not die.

Trudge on,

Fight on,

Win.

I’ve lost the battle on this lonely hill,

Over her,

Against him.

But I have more ahead,

I must keep my head high.

The battle has just begun,

I’m the master of this heart of mine,

This heart so loving,

These hands so kind,

But can I find,

Another girl?

Like you?

Whether you know it or not. . .

The title of this blogpost comes from a favorite song of mine,  "happy" by nevershoutnever
You know those people that just make you super happy, and they probably have no clue, well I love them muchly! 我很好愛你。 As the chinese would say, I hope thats correct grammar :)
But basically I've just been thinking about how great I have it, how many great friends I have and what a great past I've had.  Let's be honest I've had a very rough past, the ups and downs of high school drama about took it out of me, but I'm here in college, and I made it this far... So enough with ranting.  Lets talk about you! Yes you!
So there's this kid, back home.  He is super awesome! I really miss his guts because he always had that smile that could cheer anyone up, he is the friendliest person ever!!! xD
So I have this sister on a mission, Jade, yup she's the one.  Ya she's in Thailand right now, and she gets back in 13 days, isn't that crazy? Yea it is!  Well she makes me happy too :)
There's this little, dorky, cute, stud-muffin brother named paul, he's super awesome, and his funny funniness? sure makes me laugh :) oh and it makes me happy.
I have this sister named Sara, and she's just awesome, I'm going over there for breakfast today :)
I have these roommates going on missions they are such great examples! And they make me happy.
Girls are awesome and I appreciate all of the girls that respect themselves and stay modest, thank you :)
I have a friend I haven't seen in months, I miss him dearly, and he should know that I love him muchly.
I have a friend who is always willing to talk to me, when I need to clear my head she'll just take a walk with me, thank you.
I have a friend who I can talk to anything about, do you know how much it means to have someone that close! Especially when you've only known them for a few months? has it even been that long? wow... it almost has :)

My point is I have so many awesome people around me, if I named them all it would take me ages... and I'd probably be an old man by the end of this blog post, and no one wants to see the wrinkly grumpy old me for another 60 years... So we'll wait :)

Love you people!

Love,

Pay

Words

I've decided to start writing stuff again... And when I say write stuff... I mean... Write stuff...

Ya okay, so that probably didn't answer any of your questions... But I've been avoiding the depressing, crazy, vent to you poems... But I miss them too much... So here we go...

I Stood outside the doorway

just waiting for you

you didn't show up

you don't care.

Trying not to have a care in the world

You keep speeding down the freeway

I'm running through the woods.

Trying to catch your confused spirit,

I try to take you with me,

everywhere I go!

You're just scared of me,

But I can't seem to let go.

Fire sets on the stage

where I play the one you love,

but its only acting

and the shows over

and burning down in flames.

Flames of hatred sworn to consume me

things bitter, lost, and torn.

The moment you met me 

you knew I would be thrown right out the door.

Quit your crying

Its over

You caused this disaster

and you know it

I can't come back

You won't let me!

You know I loved you

Yet you hate me!

At least I have them

the ones who love,

the people who care.

I can hope for things

even if they aren't there.

I can hope for love

I can hope for patience.

I can hope for care

I can hope to dare;

Dare to hold someone close

and keep them near

to bring my nose

so close to yours

that you can feel my breath on your cheek

that the tears you cry

are shared with me.  

The woods are dark

and I am lost.

Its like I'm drunk

blurred vision

oh so dizzy.

Its pouring rain now,

the rain turns to Ice.

Your tires are slipping,

you have no grip

your slipping fast.

No ones here to save you!

You left me far behind

I'm stuck and lost,

Your dying in return.

How am I to help you?

I wanted to.

You thought I was worthless,

That my caring was creepy,

that I couldn't be true.

Commitment is scary,

complicated and messy,

tricky and deadly.

To someone like you,

but to me it's being there

for someone you care,

about and want to hold

without any sliver of a doubt.

You cross the double yellow line

bright lights blind you.

I'm lying in a mud pile

crying over you.

Your dead,

I'm gone,

Your hurt,

I'm lost,

It's over,

and theres nothing

I could have done.

Quit your crying

Its over

You caused this disaster

and you know it

I can't come back

You won't let me!

You know I loved you

Yet you hate me!

Extremely rusty...

x_x

Oh well...

<3

Pay

Once upon a tiny college apartment. . .

Once upon a time,
there was a boy, his name was. . . this kid. . . Then he went to college and got all scared and started freaking out because he didn't know how to study.  So, this kid went to classes every day, did his homework, and wrote papers and stuff.  Although that wasn't enough so he decided he would be exceptionally exciting and get a life... A life that involved women, yes women, a tiny college apartment, and insanely insane roommates like my good pal Trevor.  Now before you throw your eyes elsewhere and start gazing at Matt Bomer or Emma Watson (depending on your preference and/or gender) let me get to the exciting part.

This Kid is intense. . . That hasn't happened before... oops r_r
This Kid asked a girl to homecoming! WHAT? Good thing its cheap and his frugality can allow him 12 dollars every not so very often!  This kid decided that his life was pretty good, except he's been eating really lame and not so exciting meals... Like beans... And rice... and tortillas... WOAH!

This Kid became in such dire need of chocolate he wrote a poem about it...

CHOCOLATE

I'm not a girl

& no. I do not hoard it,

don't keep it in my closet,

and maybe some smoke it,

but thats weird.

Chocolate isn't a drug,

it is just my addiction

it's special bunched up love.

My safety blanket,

fake warmth and fictitious hugs,

wins a girl favor.

Can sometimes fix the love,

to cure a broken heart.

Pretty bad addiction?

I know it.

Midnight Craves?

Bet on it.

But I love chocolate

forever.

Bet This Kid sounded like a girl just then. . . He isn't.

Trust me, I know him extremely well v_v 

This Kid felt like a G...

So he went to hip hop club... He felt more like a G

This Kid pretty much is a G!

Deal with it!

Oh and my apartment is TINY! and I really am getting tired of my one roommate telling me to shower... When I just did and then I go hang out with girls and they tell me I smell delicious... I don't really know what thats about...   

  <><>

   V V

How is that for an angry vampire face???

And one more thing... If you ever tell a guy hes intense or that he's freaking you out (depending)... it just means you don't appreciate someone caring about you :)

Then again. . . Why would I spend time with someone like that... I'm honestly just trying to help out you people... And guys if she says that... She really isn't worth it...  Unless you are over crowding her... But flirting and showing you care isn't bad... So go for it :)

This Kid is done talking about himself in 3rd person.

I'm back!

And I'm leaving

<3

.

..

...

....

.....

......

-Pay

College bound? What are you up against?

Okay people... So obviously I haven't blogged in ages.  That would be my dear college life's fault.
Now I'm sure you're extremely curious as to how us college students do it.  Therefore let me tell you how it works, and hopefully you might heed to my words and survive.
1. College v. High School

• Attendance- So College classes don't take roll... Pretty awesome right? Yes actually, very wonderful.  So I skip classes whenever I feel like it?  False.  There isn't really a way to make up work you miss, or material learned... So go to class! No matter what!
• Homework- If you're complaining about homework in High School... Its because you need to stop procrastinating.  If College had High School Homework it would be called UVU. (sorry mean joke) Now moving on... Do your homework now, and get ready for the bajillion times more work college requires.
• Drama? So most people say they can't wait to escape High School drama... Well the truth is, High School Drama is nothing.  In College all the girls want to get married, and won't date freshman.  So it basically multiplies all the drama times bajillion.  

All in all we could just say college is a bajillion times harder in every sense :)

2. Food
Do you like food?  If you do I recommend you figure out a schedule of meals you can make... That aren't too time consuming... Because there isn't a lot of time in these college days xP
So basically figure out what you want to eat during college.  btw Top Ramen every day is a bad idea.
Also take advantage of free food.  Its very wonderful getting free food.  So go if you can :)

3.  Social Life
Just so you know you might want to think about getting rid of 50% of your social life... Okay maybe all of it but one weekend night... And save some time for tunnel singing (If you plan on going to BYU) So basically plan on having no life during the week.  Because if you try hanging out on the weekends you don't do your homework.  Which all results in you failing your classes... And Failing your classes... Well we all know why thats bad :)

So now if you feel like read my paper-

Payden Jolley

Writing 150-Section 70

Emily Belanger

09/27/2011

The Perfect Fit

My roommate, he’s kind of like those shoes that look great in your closet, but when you put them on they just aren’t very comfortable.  Being around him is impossible to describe, as if tasting a sweet and sour candy, as if chewing on a piece of gum that lost its flavor 30 minutes ago, you hate it, but at the same time you enjoy it. Don’t you?  Now as I sit here typing this I’m hoping that my roommate doesn’t decide to propel his fist through my face. But I’m just as grateful for the water bottle he just handed me, my throat is so dry!  As the roller-coaster of our relationship screams through the year, I hope we can both learn something from our differences. Oh, and of course our similarities.  

My roommate is like a mosquito, you don’t really realize he is there, until there’s the irritating rash of what he's left behind.  There he is just the regular morning, eating a bowl of cereal.  I grab my cereal box off the top of the fridge, the single serving that remained last night is now in his bowl, into his spoon, and his throat.  How one person could be so inconsiderate, as to not ask before taking something, is beyond me.  Haven’t you ever had a friend that just drives you to the point of insanity? Like the one kid who asks to have a sip of your smoothie and he drinks the whole entire thing.  Well, he’s like that, my roommate, he doesn’t seem to understand that whats mine is mine, and whats his is his.  Goodness gracious, do I ever steal his stuff? Heavens no!

Okay I’ll admit it, I couldn’t ask for a better roommate, the truth is, he isn’t as bad as I make him out to be.  He really is a great guy.  He cares a lot about people, and would never intentionally hurt someone.  He is getting dates all the time, and I don’t even know how he does it, and I sure don’t mind it.  There are so many luxurious ladies around him that I usually get the leftovers.  So that is definitely a bonus, and I love him for it. He may always bring me his last picks.  But who cares? He draws in the best of girls, the fabulous funny ones, the creative cute ones, and the romantic righteous ones. I can never go wrong relying on him to set me up! Heck, even if its a blind date!

You know those people that beg for attention? They just can’t get enough of it? Every moment of ever day they want to have the spotlight.  And my roommate would be one of those people.  Can you imagine having him always shouting and yelling at people to get them to glance over? Its like I’m babysitting a rowdy 12 year old, one that wont shut his mouth.  Sometimes I have to put in ear plugs when I study because he gets so loud; and the only time I should have to do that, is when the Lawn Mower passes by my window.  My roommate is not a lawn mower!

Have you ever been to a 5-star restaurant?  If you haven’t don’t bother.  Just come on over to my place! I know a 6 star chef awaiting to cook the dinner of your dreams! My roommate ought to be cooking dinner every single night!  The guy is a master chef, the moment my lips touched his precious and treasured creme brûlée I thought I had died and gone to heaven.  He can make even the pickiest of people’s tastebuds water. Just imagine, the one who gets to eat all of this food: the cookies, roast, potatoes, and soup; so much delicious food from this man, all for me.

Some girls flock to certain men more then others.  Usually because they have shirt breaching muscles, a quiet confidence with a splash of funny, or intelligence to connect with all who surround them.  The time he took the girl to Mount Timpanogos for the sunrise, I knew it was over.  That sums up my roommate pretty well.  The girl getter, the bandit of babes.  He always steals the girls I want most, and it just isn’t fair.

The kids a genius! But works to much out of school;  fine by me, for I get a shot with the ladies.  Haven’t you ever struggled to understand math, science, or any subject for that matter? I have.  But no more will I worry. I’ve got a free, personal, number crunching, scientifically mind blowing roommate. No way I’m going to fail a class with this Einstein by my side.  You might as well blow E=MC2 out of the equation, for he’s about to defy gravity. 

What a geek. My roommate may not have the giant glasses and the Steve Urkel pants, but he sure acts like it.  Does he think his star trek lego ship and mini figures will do him any good? I think not!  It’s all a game to him, soaring swiftly like a star ship, jabbing a saber just like a Jedi.  It is so silly.  He’s almost killed me with that light saber of his, he really needs to read the safety warning, “CAUTION DO NOT poke or jab with Light saber.  Sections are made to stick together in the extended position and will not easily collapse if jabbed into an object, individual, or animal.”  I’ve tried showing him, let’s just say I was not so joyfully jabbed.

Should I be counting my blessings? After all It could be worse. I have such an awesome friend that I get to live with.  He can, after all make me  dinner to perplex my mind.  He can help me differentiate what I couldn’t before.  This world is full of things we can be grateful for.  There is always that piece of life that we can all love so dearly.  Why can’t I just find that in my roommate?  Some people are torn apart by their differences, but I can pull me and my roommate together. Don’t you ever feel that way?  I recognize that I do!  I have so much to be grateful for.

How come I get the senseless roommate who has no common courtesy?  Why don’t other people have the dumb old geezer who can’t get a dime? He can’t even fathom the simplistic act of buying his own toilet paper!  Can’t he do anything for himself!  Why can’t I have anything like he’s got it?  He can’t handle a job interview, he’s just to cocky, crammed, and complicated.  Poor guy just doesn’t stand a sliver of a chance.

Well, maybe he’s got a shot? Does he? I think I get it now! The point of all of this.  Those places in life which he struggles I can help build him higher.  I can help him learn that he can’t have everything he wants, and he can’t just take my food.  He can teach me his ways with the lovely ladies and I can get those girl melting muscles.  By working side by side with him, he can help me get a 4.0 while I’ll help him learn to go grocery shop for his own fancy food, and not so charmin’ toilet paper, I can teach him how to settle down his horrific hormonal self and not be such a player.  We’re going to become best friends; maybe my roommate is, after all, a perfect fit.

Love,

Pay

The TEN Pro's and Con's of the college life... r_r

Pro 1:

Girls are everywhere

Con1:

College girls don't date pre-missionaries...

Now what am I going to do about that?

HAH! Date them anyways :)

Pro 2:

I have good roommates

Con 2:

My Jam disappeared

Now what am I going to do about that?

I'm going to make daniel buy me new jam :)

Pro 3:

I love my book of Mormon class

Con 3:

I have to read the BOM in 2 weeks

Now what will I do about that?

Read 20 pages a day.

Pro 4:

Devotionals are awesome, and every tuesday...

Con 4:

They're right after my class so I'm late... ><

What shall I do?

RUN to the Marriott center as quickly as I can

Pro 5:

I can eat whatever I want

Con 5:

Stomach Ache

Solution?

Eat better :) (which I have been doing) r_r

Pro 6:

I get my math homework done

Con 6:

I spend all my time in the math lab

What to do?

Well... I guess I just have to deal with it.

Pro 7:

So many new friends!!!! :D

Con 7:

I really miss my old buddies :(

What can I do?

Well the question is: What can they do? (Jared, Rachel, Julia, Riley, James, Taylor, etc....) r_r please come visit me :)

Pro 8: 

The spirit here is amazing! Amazing!

Con 8:

I don't think there is a con to this pro... :)

What to do?

Its just perfect!

Pro 9:

I live independently!

Con 9:

I don't live in new heritage

How do I solve this one?

Pester housing until they let me in for next semester :)

Old

New

Pro 10:

I live right on campus

Con 10:

I have no where else to go and no way to get elsewhere

Solved?

Pay- Trev! Drive me now!!!

Trev- I know you called shotgun... but...

(chances are only trevor will laugh at that r_r)

COLLEGE IS AWESOME!!!!
r_r

<3

Pay

Paisley and Suspenders... 10 pounds of rice and Nutella...

Hello there! Guess what I did today!?
I went shopping :)
I got lots of food, and my diet will consist of rice, tortillas, beans, Nutella, bagels, etc...
It's really exciting!
Also today I went to my stake back in Alpine (my old stake I guess) and did service for stake conference with my roommate Andrew! It was so much fun! xD I love service!
Then we went to the leadership conference and Elder Richard G. Scott was there :)
It was phenomenal! At the end he just opened it up for questions and we just went at it asking him all sorts of questions, I loved it! :)
He gave his talk like he was teaching a lesson, he asked questions and it was just awesome!
Then tonight was the finale of NSO (new student orientation) for BYU it was great. There was a dance!
And guess what I wore? Thats right! Paisley all the way.  I got these awesome clothes from Gramps and I finally got the chance to show them off.  The ladies were all over me (for reals).  Although I never ran into the one I was looking for :(
Oh well! :)
 So picture time???
SURE!
xD

So stylish eh? I know right!!!

Nutella! r_r

Beans... and Tuna!!!!! r_r

and my 10 pound bag of rice :) which 

should last me all semester!!

xD

Peace,

love,

Pay <3

I wish it were that easy

Moving on,
moving away,
passing by,
I'm moving, moving to a new stage of life, a new dimension really... r_r
It's kinda crazy to think that I'm here, to think that I'm surrounded by cute college girls and fantastic roommates... It's kinda crazy to realize that I'm doing this, that I'm taking math 112 and that I'm making breakfast, lunch, and dinner.
That I have to completely rely on my own income for room and board, as well as to keep a full belly.
It's so crazy weird to think how things are changing for me.  How friends are leaving on missions. How the people I knew are getting married.  The people I once new getting in to trouble, or going into the military, or even being hooligans and not doing anything with their lives.  I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm here and I'm shocked, my mind is scurrying for solid ground because I don't know what to do to myself.
I've had my first piece of drama and guess what it isn't bad... Not like High School drama.
I just dropped it like a rock! Woah! Go me.
No more crying about girls that seem to not understand or friends that yell at you for the dumbest reasons.
My life is just... SO DIFFERENT!
I live here now. In PROVO, Utah.  Away from my family, away from my awesome brother Paul.
Away from so much that I once had. A mom to cook food and a dad to talk to my day about.
I don't think you can understand what growing up is like until you're here. Sitting at a desk writing it down. Sighing because you're sad, but you're so happy.  Sighing because you don't know what to do with yourself but you know it will be great.
Sighing because you know a mission is so far away. Yet only a year away!!! Sighing because in four years I could be married. And sighing because in 10 I could have two kids sitting on my knees.  Sighing because I could be a mechanical engineer or a surgeon sawing away at math problems or body parts.
I'm sighing...
But I wish it were that easy.

<3
Pay

Turning a New Leaf

Wow... I'm here, I'm sitting in my new room for the next 8 months of my life.  Its weird, Its crazy, I'm going insane! I have some pictures for you! Yup I sure do! xD

This is Andrew, he plays guitar and stuff :)

He's pretty Cool and I look forward to getting to know more

about him.

This is Daniel, he's holding a Lego spaceship... from Star

Trek or something? Sure we'll go with that, he's the kid thats

going to be helping me with my math I guess...

:)

My Bedroom :)

Cool eh?

Trevor sleeps on the left bed, I sleep on the right one :)

done deal...

Heres A better view of my corner of the apartment :)

I got new scriptures!!! Yay! So exciting!!! :) :) :)

This is Sterling, He is also very awesome! :)

He is very musically talented and got accepted

as a major in the guitar concert performer something

or other! :)

This is the Kitchen... Thats all that matters really... r_r

And then this is me... and thats my first day of college life...

Just wait til the classes start eh?

haha r_r

Lov you people

love,

Pay

Here I am

So I made it... This is seriously it... I'm grown up, living on my own... All by myself... :D
this is crazy... So I met my first roommate (aside from trevor) his name is stirling and he's pretty cool.
Our bathroom smells really nasty! >< barf! But thats okay... The rest is all good :)
So anyways heres a picture of me in my dorm...

Yay!
Okay well peace out! Love,
ME! r_r

8 hours and counting :)

Just What Happens

Winning battles

Losing wars

Making progress

Falling short

These are things

that happen oft.

We get so high

We end too far

I guess what I mean is

It isn't perfect

it may not seem worth it

but the truth is

what works with it

we can't always control it;

And sometimes we over hear it,

but just flow forward,

moving along in the current

coursing ever onward,

mapping towards the end

where love and peace end

how babies won't cry

and I'm not as shy

I think its to say

that I like it this way

Just hold onto you what I need

and Love and Joy will succeed

don't fleet in battle

you can't take the babies rattle,

you can't hurt what's already dead

you cant fix which won't mend

I'm just going to let it fly

through canyons like wind

through forests like birds

through rivers like fish

I can't control

not you,

just me.

So I'll let you be

and love still the same

Just don't do it for me

I've made it this far

I can make it further

It may take patience

I may fall under

I might collapse

but I'll get right back

Up on my feet again.

Do it for you

Because I love you

and me can take it

One and a half days...ish til I move in!

So as the countdown draws nearer to conclusion I'm flippin' out! Aren't you? Okay... well you probably aren't because why would you do that over something that isn't happening to you...
Unless... I have a really large affect on you and I'm making you flip out! xD
Okay well anyways here I sit in the WSC (Wilkinson center) at BYU after my shift at Taco Bell, just ate a footlong sub sandwich and got it for 4 dollars with my coupon then I got a free drink! Yay! But thats really besides the point... Wanna see a picture of me?
Ya... I thought so ;)

This is me after work... Don't I look lovely?? I know right!? okay well at three I'm going to hang out until my sister gets of work... But until then I have to sit her and do blogging and stuff... So we shall see where all this leads me :)

How about I continue to spotlight my friends??? okay sure xD

Riley Bowman

Riley... Riley... Riley riley RILEY!

Well I'm nearly entirely positive you won't read this :)

But thats okay because other people will and realize how cool you

are! You have basically been my friend for a really long long time...

We've had some good moments like the time above when we went to

see the body worlds exhibit in Salt Lake, that was fun wasn't it? 

Yes... Yes it was :)

Its been good being in your ward, being your neighbor, and especially 

having you as a friend I can count on.  You are so smart and the ladies

dig that, so go get them (after your mission) 

haha well good knowing you! I'll call you when I need help with

homework ;)

Rachel Smith+Taylor Airmet

First to Rachel:

You are the best! and thats a really scary face! Good Job!

We've had many good times and I will miss you dearly

not having anyone to say "Hey, it's okay" in that voice 

of yours is going to be rather unfortunate... :(

I think its funny/awesome how many words gross you out; and

then I get to tease you about it... hehe

love you rachie!

<3 me

Second to Taylor:

HEY! so I think we should pretend that babies in the

night sky are like shooting babies... I could really .............

:) we've had some pretty good times...

Also I think once you graduate High school we can create a joint

company that makes jingles for products like Gold Narwhal Crackers

:) I'll miss you loads!

Have fun your senior year!!!!

-Payden

So I got a bunch of clothes form my Grandpa Short when he passed away and I looked through them today and I'm excited! I'll do a photo shoot for you sometime soon okay? Okay! Deal? Deal!

Oh and I'm going to get scriptures today! (new ones that is) YAY!!! :D

Busy Busy Stress Stress!

I cannot believe this!

I move in in two days! Crazy! A whole semester of crazy fun roommates, high amounts of stress, no more high school drama!

I'm both excited but at the same time stressed out! I have a bunch of stuff to do for my job at taco bell (training and such online) and all these boxes and stuff are stressing me out.  I just wanna get out of here and move in!!!

I'm going to miss my friends and family dearly dearly dearly! :(

This week was insane however I had a 40 hour week of Taco Bell and Teriyaki Stiks. It was sooo crazy!

No my room looks like this:

My awesome sister Jade on a mission is letting me use her laptop, I updated it to Mac OS X Lion today and its really exciting!

Also today I sang in Church and I really wasn't looking forward to it (mainly because I wasn't prepared) But it turned out just fine :)

Thank you heavenly father

Anyhway, its time for the spotlights of my dearest friends again r_r

Sara Jolley

Now as womanly as I look and as short as I am

this is me and Sara at best :) we have lots of fun

together and have had many good times.  Even 

though I'm probably going to see her more now

that we're going to the same school again I want

to devote a little piece of my blog to her super duper

awesomeness! She's so cool and so sweet and 

a really good example to me, I love her lots and

lots and I miss our childhood days of dress up

where I was Batman and she was Robin, where

I was the hero and she the damsel in distress,

our days of beanie babies up in the loft, and getting

muddy in the 'Mud Pit' and getting sand in our shorts

while playing in the sandbox. Having our lego 

adventures with murphy and our weird lego story

lines :)

Sara we've had some epic adventures, and

now you have a cool boyfriend named Nolan

ya he's pretty legit, so keep a close eye on that one.

Oh and don't worry if he breaks your heart...

hes in soooooo much trouble, but I don't think he will

like I said he's pretty boss :)

I got your back sis :)

Love, ME

Jade Jolley

Me and Jade... Well we think we are gangsters... And 

the truth is we aren't... But thats okay because we have

fun.  Mom always says "why can't you just give me a 

good smile" but I just don't think she understands how 

much more fun it is to let our crazy "Jolley" nature shine :)

Jade is on a mission in Thailand! She is a great example to me

like my biggest role model! I want to be just like her (except be the man version)

She's so nice and loving and she truly knows whats best.

Sure she makes mistakes but thats human!

She's always the first one to punch me when I burp or 

do stuff like that but hey! I love her loads!

I can't wait til she comes home!!!!!!

Love you Jade!

-Payden

Paul Jolley

Paul my buddy! I have no clue if you'll read this

but whatevs! As you once said you are my bromaha

whatever that entitles r_r regardless we have so many

epic adventures together. I think the picture above 

describes how cool we are :) Just sayin xD

anyways I hope that you can survive without me r_r

haha just kidding bud! I know you'll be fine!

But the important thing is that you are awesome!

And thats about the jist of it! 

Rock on little bro!

Love,

ME!

And now I ought to show you me and my awesome siblings

This is us! We are so cute in our easter sunday outfits! Paul is

Exceptionally adorable. What happened to us? oh right... we grew

up :P

I have sauce all over my face and our house looks old!

Look at all the neighborhood kids. Proof indeed that I 

was born and raised in Alpine, Utah.

From a young age the Jolley children learned to love camping

and I love it indeed! We have so much fun on our campouts

together and I truly look forward to when we can all bring our

kids back to the places with our spouses :) it'll be fun! r_r

I'm not sure what expression that is on my face...

But aren't we just the most stylish children you ever did see???

I THINK YES!

THE BEST PICTURE EVER

This is the kids! All grown up! Isn't it fun looking at this

timeline of us kids? r_r

I love how odd we are :) I love my sisters... 

We thought we were so clever on the amusement rides doing 

silly things for the camera :) in fact we are so clever! hehe r_r

Camping Kids! He were are camping again and even older some

in the stubborn 'I need to get away from my family phase'

but we still loved camping together, now thats something

hard to find these days :)

Why buy the stuff when you can just put it on then take pictures?

GENIUS!

Yup we're weird... get over it... (this is the time where mom

gets angry because we didn't smile)

Well thats all for this episode

thanks for reading :)

Peace, over, and out!

-Pay

Paydens Back! Back again!

Hello dear followers and fellow bloggers.
I am here to say that I am back after a few days.
College is ever nearer and it is time to continue my tributes to my friends.

Riley Wilson

Riley! You are a wonderful human being!

And I'm going to miss you like a lot! We have had many adventures

together, and been on many dates together,

Including the one above, in which we were both sick :p

it was fantastic, but miserable at the same time.

Thanks to james who influenced me to eat 20 Crème brûlée

 (I may be exaggerating)

Well I love you lots and will miss you dearly while I'm at college, do come visit

with James :)

Love, ME!

Julia Larsen

Hey! Remember when we went to preference?

Ya that was fun :)

So very much fun.

Anyways I love you like a sister, and I hope we

always stay friends, we've been through a lot

or you've been through a lot I guess we could say

but we've managed this friendship still...

:)

So don't forget about me while I'm at college!

K?

<3, this kid

and the last one for today

Michael Bernstein

This is Michael

He is my best friend.

We basically grew up together.

We were brothers from another mother, and I was closer

to him then most people when I was little.

I miss him so much and can't wait til' the day we meet again.

He was such a strong kid, and I look up to him.

He fought through so much hardship and I know now he's in a

better place. I remember the day of Michaels funeral in ninth grade,

and though Michael didn't make it physically this far, I know he's been with

me this whole way.

I try to visit his grave once a month and it reminds me of his

friendship, I will always keep his spirit and his memory close.

Love you Michael

Love, Your best friend.

Haunted House Contest

So I want to go to this haunted house, and I can win a free tour and stuff...
If you people like my wall post on facebook! :)
http://www.facebook.com/PaydenJolley/posts/195450373850689?notif_t=like
so go to that link above this text
and like it :)
I'll love you forever :)

love,
Me

14 Days until I move in... (friends part one)

College is fast approaching and what's even closer is me moving in.

And I want to say something to many of my friends.

I'm going to miss you... :( Lots!

And before I start this whole dedication to my friends, I'm sorry if I forget someone, I have a not to awesome memory r_r and sorry family this isn't dedicated to you, I'll probably see you once a week anyways :) but I still Love you!

Okay so first of...

Jared Olsen

This Picture in (as weird as we look) probably describes us best...

We fight, and then we are friends, and then we fight, and then we 

do weird stuff... r_r

Like the above photo

Jared it is sad we are going to different colleges,

just know...

BYU is better hehe hehe

okay well actually your school is cool too... But you know... I have to have pride :)

James Lewis

I can't decide which is more odd... The fact that I posted this picture

or the fact that we leg wrestled.... This would probably best describe

our odd spontaneous activity best though...  Tanning in your yard,

pretending a punching bag is a man who stole our women, you irritating

cashiers at various stores and restaurants, us walking around at midnight 

and me discovering a leaky tree? Okay well basically I will miss those

adventures and I'll come to your house and visit, if you do my laundry for me

deal?

deal! 

r_r

Mckay Lewis

Unfortunately I didn't find a picture of us epic enough to post,

so I'll just post your lovely face... :)

I think you are probably the coolest man alive. You are the gentle

giant, literally.  You wouldn't hurt a fly (but you could) r_r

now... remember that time you came to bear lake with my

family? It was awesome! Good luck on your mission my man! You

will do great things! I'm surely sure of it!

I will continue the post when I have time... r_r