Words

I've decided to start writing stuff again... And when I say write stuff... I mean... Write stuff...

Ya okay, so that probably didn't answer any of your questions... But I've been avoiding the depressing, crazy, vent to you poems... But I miss them too much... So here we go...

I Stood outside the doorway

just waiting for you

you didn't show up

you don't care.

Trying not to have a care in the world

You keep speeding down the freeway

I'm running through the woods.

Trying to catch your confused spirit,

I try to take you with me,

everywhere I go!

You're just scared of me,

But I can't seem to let go.

Fire sets on the stage

where I play the one you love,

but its only acting

and the shows over

and burning down in flames.

Flames of hatred sworn to consume me

things bitter, lost, and torn.

The moment you met me 

you knew I would be thrown right out the door.

Quit your crying

Its over

You caused this disaster

and you know it

I can't come back

You won't let me!

You know I loved you

Yet you hate me!

At least I have them

the ones who love,

the people who care.

I can hope for things

even if they aren't there.

I can hope for love

I can hope for patience.

I can hope for care

I can hope to dare;

Dare to hold someone close

and keep them near

to bring my nose

so close to yours

that you can feel my breath on your cheek

that the tears you cry

are shared with me.  

The woods are dark

and I am lost.

Its like I'm drunk

blurred vision

oh so dizzy.

Its pouring rain now,

the rain turns to Ice.

Your tires are slipping,

you have no grip

your slipping fast.

No ones here to save you!

You left me far behind

I'm stuck and lost,

Your dying in return.

How am I to help you?

I wanted to.

You thought I was worthless,

That my caring was creepy,

that I couldn't be true.

Commitment is scary,

complicated and messy,

tricky and deadly.

To someone like you,

but to me it's being there

for someone you care,

about and want to hold

without any sliver of a doubt.

You cross the double yellow line

bright lights blind you.

I'm lying in a mud pile

crying over you.

Your dead,

I'm gone,

Your hurt,

I'm lost,

It's over,

and theres nothing

I could have done.

Quit your crying

Its over

You caused this disaster

and you know it

I can't come back

You won't let me!

You know I loved you

Yet you hate me!

Extremely rusty...

x_x

Oh well...

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